side note

i asked the cards if i should vote “blue no matter who” or “bernie or stay home” and it came back with the queen of wands.

“She has great power to attract that which she wants, and is fruitful in mind and
body. Loving nature and her home, she is practical with money and sound in her business judgments.
If she does not represent a woman, then she represents these qualities: success in undertakings;
love of home and growing things; kindness and generosity”

i think there is a long way left to go to november, but i’ll be voting.

senate impeachment trial

so i asked my tarot cards about this shit. i wasnt even sure how to ask, what to ask, so i just sat there with my jumbled thoughts and the hearing playing while chief justice read a question. 3 card spread.

King of Pentacles, reversed. “Stupidity. Perverse use of talents. Thriftless. Easy to bribe. Vice. Caution against association with gamblers and speculators. If crossed, he could be a dangerous man.”

Knight of Wands, reversed: “The would-be lover turns jealous, creates conflict. Discord, frustration, lack of energy.
Work interfered with.”

Queen of Pentacles, reversed: “Reversed: Mistrust, suspicion. Duties neglected. Dependence on others. Changeable. Fearful of failure.”

What the fuck.


I’ve been crocheting baby Yodas all day. Staycations are nice. Time to ask the cards about what the fuck is playing out in front of me, even though it’s pretty obvious.

cards, the problem in front of me is mired in partisanship and obfuscation of crime. i sit in shame of my representatives and praise those who have stuck to their ethics in the face of what is, i believe, to be thinly veiled treason. not just by one man, but his entire party. our nation is figurative seconds from collapsing, so i ask to have the smoke cleared.

the nature of the problem: eight of pentacles. “the beginning of a profitable undertaking, employment or commission to come.” money again.

the nature of the problem: eight of pentacles. “the beginning of a profitable undertaking, employment or commission to come.” money again.

the cause of the problem: page of pentacles. a scholar? “bringer of good news, messages about money”. this will require more thought.

the solution of the problem: wheel of fortune, inversed. “failure of an enterprise, setbacks. new conditions require courage. you will reap what you have sown.” what the fuck, cards. i don’t want a president pence, but jfc. this is almost as bad as the first time i asked about trump and drew the tower.

december 12

today’s my cakeday on reddit. i’ve had an account for 9 years and lurked for 4 years before that. so happy cakeday, let’s make it another good 13 years.

i’ve got the debate over the articles of impeachment on. i need an “i love cspan3” shirt.

now i’m going to ask my tarot cards about it. i don’t outright believe in divination, but i think that tarot cards make a great tool for thinking around an issue. i’ll be citing “the complete guide to the tarot” by gray for my meanings. easy 3 card spreads for this. cards, what the hell is wrong with my country?

the nature of the problem: the emperor, inverted. “[…] His Key is No. 4, and this indicates all that is stable—four-square, broad-based, a foundation for the building of law and order. […] The Emperor is the active Father force contrasted with the active Mother force through whom his characteristics are brought forth. […] The Emperor stands for domination of the material world, for authority, paternity, and the regulation of life by law. Note that flesh is not the enemy of the Spirit but its vehicle; Spirit is not the enemy of the flesh but its driving force. “

the cause of the problem: six of cups. “Happiness, enjoyment, but coming from the past. Meeting with a childhood acquaintance. Pleasant memories. Or this card may mean new friendships. A gift from an admirer. New knowledge and new opportunities.”

the solution of the problem: nine of swords. “Suffering, loss, misery. Burden, oppression. Doubt and desolation. Illness. May mean death of a loved one”

what immediately jumps out at me is the inverted emperor. i don’t play with my deck all that often and this is the second time i’ve asked it about the current president. the first time i got the tower, no fucking joke. that was strange. like i wrote above, i don’t really believe in divination. just problems, their solutions, and the long and weird road to get there.

so that definition of the card from gray suggests a stable leader is indicated by the emperor. inverted, even if we take a positive approach to inverted cards, is not great. it suggests an unstable leader, one that is losing its grip on law and life. as to why that’s the nature of the problem – i would have anticipated seeing an overt nod to trump in the “cause” spot, not the nature of it. i suppose that one could write that the erosion and reformation of executive powers during the obama years, that is directly empowering trump today, created an office that could be symbolized by an inverted emperor.

the cause, the more i think about it, is spot on. there were a great many angry people that coalesced together during the obama years. they seemed to have wanted a return to the day where people of color, lgbt folks, and women of any stripe had no say. those people saw that glimmer and that opportunity in trump. i remember that clearly during the summer of 2015, the tenor of the discussions in the break room and the sheer glee on some of the older folk’s faces told me what they saw in trump as a candidate.

the solution. i hope “doubt and desolation” are the absolute worst of what we get in the coming year, and even then the happy fluff-bunny definitions of “doubt and desolation”. finding the definition for the nine of swords hurt. i refuse to own a gun, i refuse to entertain the idea of killing another person. i hope that the pain this card brings to the fore is metaphorical and not physical.

now i think i’ll start a crochet bag for my cards.